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Well sence its been along time sence my last post lets fill you junkies in. I recently moved from alaska, now im living in iowa. back to square one. sence last i wrote on here iv went through some huge changes. iv worke for a year at a major retail company as the freight pic, which is the person in charge. and i was trained as a forklift driver, a sporting goods rep, which means i sell guns and stock all the hunting thing. also i was datein a awsome lady for a short bit. the secod relation ship sence my last post. the one before that was a lady named chantel. the last one was krista. pretty much both broke my heart and both still know i love them dearly. we still talk but not much. i talk to chantel way more. shes like my best friend. well ill be in touch. peacee. |
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It's another winter for me. Cold dark days lay ahead an i dont know what to do other then to take it day by day. Wish i could just find a girl to sweep me up in a life where i dont have to think about where im going to sleep, what im going to eat. To comfort me when im down and out...depressed from this horrible darkness... I dont think anyone realy understands. Well more and more time passes, i search for income. I try, now im resorted into applying for low income job that will no doubt take my mind and twist it to more complicated matters, like bills....and more bills....work stress.....blahCurrent Mood:  w0rd Current Music: three six mafia- stay fly |
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Once again, life in the fast lane. Nothin great happens nothin great ever does, sept tonight once again mom and john smokin that crackola gettin there tweek on. oh yeah i dont live at home no more.....moms bf pissed me off with his lauhging at me when my shit he moved got soaked n wet so i dont wanna go to work, he laughs at me and tells me i knew you would quit before you even had gotten the job, he was sour cuz i actualy got hte job b 4 he did, so i was on the phone with my boss i hung up n threw the phone at him, guess it hit him in the head so he ran at me like he was gonna sock me. Nope i hit him first, right in the face, so of course he hit me back once and i tweeked out n kept swinging, hit him 3 or 4 times wile he coverd up and then he kicked my feet out from under me and proceeded to step all over my legs wile i was trying to get him off me, then i started hittin him in the gut and stomach.....well needless to say i really dont get along with him anymore....i got kicked out cuz of my angerlevel....and he gets to live nice n warm in my fucking house, thats right mine.....mom dies its my house.....she already told me i get it....now how would u feel if in 1 year ur mom spent over 50,000 dollars in cocaine for her boyfriends habbit, yeah mom does it too but she dont get crazy with it, make it a everyday thing n shit like JOHN MCBURNEY or whatever his gay ass last is spelt. His ass will get to him, oh did i mention that happend a few weeks ago, sence then he has accused me andmy best friend of being hired snitches.....oh yeah im a snitch haha fuckin tard...mom asks me to go check on the house n make sure her shit is there, so i go by and him n his friend are there so we drive by....turns out that he seen us and called my sister to let her know "her boyfriend and brother did a drive by on the house and didnt come in." so i dont go to see the guy who hit me oh fuckin well i hate him....so the next time i go by there the same day with my sister, he comes out n points at me n donny n says "So what areyou guys hired fuckin snitches?" fuck john and his high pony he thinks he rides......then he gets more of an attitude cuz we ignored his ass....yeah turned out he was smokin that crack that night too, imagine that huh.... oh yeah after that he gets in his head moms cheatin on him and takin off work, ya know if my mom was, she isnt, but if she was i would give her so much more props, she can do more better then this asshole crack head small dick fudge packer.....yeah u heard right i talk to my mom alot bout him....specialy how lame and everything with him is sexual, he dont love my mom at all and it sickens me....alright enough -1-Current Mood:  Distrought Current Music: Dead n Gone - NomoreMcburney |
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Six days tell my birthday, wonder what im gonna do. Well sence noone ever reads this anyway im pretty safe to vent here. Seems the girl i was gonna go and visit, possibly stay with for a bit, traded me in...yes sir thats right....she tells me this n that and then neglects to remember about it the next day it seems, cuz nothin people say is true anymore. If you love somone why deny it? why deny how somone feels? cuz you "think" they dont feel the same? or is it your affraid of rejection...or ruining something? i dunno personaly but i do realy love her and i wish she would understand it....i was willing to give up everything here for a life there. but now i dunno, how can i be brushed aside? am i? or what? i just want her to be happy but i want myself to enjoy bein happy as well....ohwell i guess, more work...
Lately iv been workin 2 jobs steady, im employed at 3 but hey cant work all day. I work landscaping for $10 n hour and at my moms office, doin misc stuff for $10 n hour, i also work at quiznos for minimum wage which is $7.15 i think....tryin to save for a plane ticket but plans change like i said above so i think im just gonna get an apartment, good thing you didnt get me a ticket huh sara, i dont think i would come right now...anyway...la lala la la gonna get a 4 bedroom apt and move donny, austin, my sister, and me, or another frined instead of my sister..havnt decided yet...well thougth a update was due..here it is.
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Have you ever been "Reprimanded" ? i dont think i have tell now, i was taken aginst my will to a place where people dont go often.....yes ladies and gents, the place is called reality....i hate it here....
2 jobs, no money, people mad cuz i aint payin them, irealydontcareaboutwhatthefucktheythink......and other people mad cuz i space out in long terms.....im gonna go get tested for adult attention defacite disorder maybe they can help me out some....i seem to high strung always trying to finish something when i dont need too.....or maybe some anxiety disorder
ohwell thats enough...new post yay its like a miricalCurrent Mood:  Wanted D.O.A. Current Music: suck my ass w/ a spoon |
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once again its another day, i dunno if i posted but my momma rat died today.....RIP sable i love ya girl....my momma....-sniff- its so not the same without her around....the babies are just like...wherei s my momma....where she go? =( well im havein a long week workin here so i got no phone...lemme a message HIT IT UP ill havea phone soon, celly so anyone can hit me up....its aplan i awann do with my boss so i can have contact with anyone who needs me...him including so i can work on call
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May. 5th, 2005 @ 01:17 am
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| » Workin |
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not sure what exactly happend yesterday, but i think my boss's nephew wrecked the car. so him and a coupe other guys got fired, cuz i got hired full time by my grandpa. mowin, rakeing, plantin trees crap like that, called Custom Yardscapeing (spelt wrong) well not much else happend sept this dog keeps shittin on my floor, i think imma kick it in the head realy hard....
Apr. 28th, 2005 @ 07:56 am
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| » My momma =( |
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my rat, sable, is realy sick. i unno whats the matter with her but she probably wont live much longer, her bein like 5 already she has little heart attacks and freaks out....she did it twice today and she is bleeding from somplace, there is blood on the newspaper...i realy love my momma rat....shes so sweet n lovey...RIP Sable Momma, i will always love ya and u will always be in my heart =(
Apr. 27th, 2005 @ 06:33 pm
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| » Shit... |
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I realy dont know what is up with my ex girlfriend danielle, she has totaly lost her mind and gone wild. she leaves her home town to move to fairbanks some, almost 600 miles from her home, and asks me to stay all late at night. so i let her bein hthe nice guy i am. she leaves...left her friend justin with me. she went out and prolly did some drugs i realy dont know. anyway i told her that if she wasnt home from gettin her "soda" by the time i went to bed she will be locked out, that didnt stop her so when i woke up at fuckin 6am i called my friend AJ, the guy she left with to get a soda, he told me he droped her off at her frined in palmer, thats like 50 miles from my house, so i told her frien to pack his shit hes leaving. dani called me back and told me she will b here asap, and i told her friend to stay up and wait for her cuz when she gets here they leavin. well she gets to myhouse at bout noon, by then im pissed and i hada talk with her. welll they left the next day at 5pm, sence then she has not known where she was gonna stay, prolly doin more drugs, stayin in a hotel, and did i mention she lied to me more then once on who her friend was, i asked if he was her fuck friend she said no, her boyfriend she said no, so today im alkin with my 13 year old sister and she tells me, danielle tells her that justin is her boyfriend and hes smackin her on the forhead with his dick, so danielle sievers if you are reading this you fuckin slut, dont talk to my fuckin family like that, you god damn loose whore when i see you ima knock your front teeth in wit ha god damn baseball bat....an djsutin you douchbag ima come for your punk ass when you ever come into anchorage for bringing my house so much trouble im tired of users, if you do coke, speed, meth, anything other then weed dont fuckin talk to me, lose my number, get fucked, die slow and dont fuckin ever speak my name aloud.....fuckin losers....
Apr. 23rd, 2005 @ 09:24 pm
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i dunno wtf i am doin up so late......but yeah im tired.....i wonder what sara is doin....hello? god is that you? yes i like cheese..... anyway, nothin has been up and doesnt look like it will. my ex moved to Fairbanks but she didnt last long there (one day) and now shes headin back to her hometown....poor danielle cant seem to make it anywhere. still love her tho, she tries. haha ok im tired night people who read this (the 3 who do)
Apr. 19th, 2005 @ 10:40 pm
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| » things go wrong in alaska? |
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well another long time goes inbetween my posts, nothin to realy reports sept i got my rats some food, awww my babies. last night we went 4-wheeling out in jims creek, way north of anchorage, past palmer. if you dunno where it is its along a river called the little sue, lotsa mud. we had to cross a huge ass puddle that looked like a lake....well i didnt get to ride the wheeler cuz we didint stay long we got there and had to leave like right away was kinda lame. well this one is gonan be a short post -NEW PIC- yeah i got a couple new ones, this thing wont lemme upload a pic to the site, damn fookers.....anyway SARA u had better call me or im gonna have ur roomie mark on u wile u sleep
Apr. 15th, 2004 @ 09:55 am
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im poo flinger, fear the might of the munchkin commander and his knights of knEehaa Loyalists!
nothin nothin bored bored post post
Apr. 4th, 2004 @ 05:42 pm
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well the day was going good, Monday, my mom came home after work and was complaining john wasnt home, so she called him. he was at his friends house which he spicificly said he wasnt gonna go cuz he couldnt get ahold of him. SO mom bitched him out and told him she was tired of hislies, and that he and her was done. (lot longer then that) and soo she told him that it was obviouse where she stood to him....the loser didnt come home tell 2:30 am, my mom cried tell then....at 10:30pm she packed his shit n it was final.....he got here and she was rippin him a new ass....and he was tryin to make it all seem like it was fine, tryin to switch it liek its moms fault...everything was good, thought i got that asshole outa my moms life....at 8am mom woke up and i distictly rember her tellin him she didnt trust him anymore. and he loaded his stuff. from some point from then tell lunch i guess they made up. well fuck that lame shit, im havin a talk with my mom when she gets home cuz quite frankly blowin my mom off with her own phone and spending our rent money consitutes as a real big asshole thing to do....i hope he dies slow with his failing liver, go take some more tylonal when your drunk you suicidal infected whores cunt.....
Mar. 30th, 2004 @ 06:53 pm
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| » Easter n shit |
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holy crap, Friday mikey came home, we got trashed. donny, mikey, austin, ashley, eric, kelsey... yeah it continued all day saturday too, drank 2 40's n was outtt cold. shit, this weekend was one to remember austin turned 21, mike came home, shit its all goin good now. lets hope i geta better job this week now.
Mar. 28th, 2004 @ 09:44 pm
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| » Another chirpy day in the Ak.... |
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CLEANING, wtf why am i cleaning! ok im hyped off loads of coffee and i dont realy give a rats ass if i dont finish cleaning......thats alot.....>-) BAMMMMMM (-< fat bitches need love too craig.....
all i did in the past few days is hang with austin an donny, donny blew me off last nite....motha fuca will die slow in the burning pits of fire.....anyway he'll call me n ill bitch him out....
Mar. 25th, 2004 @ 12:08 pm
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| » Alaska...morning |
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I got this journal to post some stuff i did today...and other days. one thing i have to say is that Sara...i got a serious hangover.... Donny, Austin,Tubbs, mom and john and me all smoked down and got drunkkkk as fucC was great.
Mar. 22nd, 2004 @ 07:47 am
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